no complaint against death

it is not a poem, or a song

it is story of my pain

There are only burning sparks in my heart

and only tears in my eyes

sometimes, my vulnerability took advantage of me

and sometime my helplessness

i have no complaint against death

it is the life that killed me

sometimes, my vulnerability took advantage of me

and sometime my helplessness

One is powerless against faith

it is the weather that never changes

it was due to my misfortune sometimes

and sometimes due to my poverty

who all do i blame

everyone took advantage of me

i have no complaint against death

it is the life that killed me

sometimes, my vulnerability took advantage of me

and sometime my helplessness

this world is selfish, disloyal

if that's how the world is, of what use is it

I didn't lack friends

I didn't lack enemies

Sometimes, enmity ruined me

and sometimes my friendship

i have no complaint against death

it is the life that killed me

sometimes, my vulnerability took advantage of me

and sometime my helplessness

i hate brightness

i am used to the dark now

Until it was dark my time passed off smoothly

It is the moonlight that looted me

it is the light that killed me

i have no complaint against death

it is the life that killed me

sometimes, my vulnerability took advantage of me

and sometime my helplessness

this was translation of the song "Kabhi bekashine mara" from movie 'Alag Alag'

but it can be true for the life of manyone

पगली लड़की ..

मवास की काली रातों में दिल का दरवाजा खुलता है

जब दर्द की प्याली रातों में गम आंसू के संग होता हैं

जब पिछवाड़े के कमरे में हम निपट अकेले होते हैं

जब घड़ियाँ टिक टिक चलती हैं,सब सोते हैं हम रोते हैं

जब बार बार दोहराने से सारी यादें चुभ जाती हैं

जब उंच नीच समझने में माथे की नस दुःख जाती हैं

तब एक पगली लड़की के बिन जीना गद्दारी लघता है

और उस पगली लड़की के बिन मरना भी भरी लगता है

जब पोथे खली होते हैं, जब हर सवाली होते हैं

जब गज़ले रास नहीं आती,अफसाने गाली होते हैं

जब बासी फीकी धुप समेंटने, दिन जल्दी ढल जाता है

जब सूरज का लश्कर छत से गलियों में देर से जाता हैं

जब लड़की घर जाने की इच्छा मन ही मन घुट जाती है

जब कॉलेज से घर लाने वाली पहली बस छुट जाती हैं

जब बेमन से खाना खाने पर माँ गुस्सा हो जाती हैं

जब लाख मन करने पर भी पारो पड़ने आ जाती है

जब अपना हर मनचाहा काम कोई लाचारी लगता है

तब एक पगली लड़की के बिन जीना गद्दारी लगता हैं

और उस पगली लड़की के बिन मरना भी भरी लगता हैं

जब कमरे में सन्नाटे की अवाज सुने देतो हैं

जब दर्पण में आँखों के नीचे छाई दिखती देती हैं

जब बडकी भाभी कहती हैं ,कुछ सेहत का भी ध्यान करो

क्या लिखते हो दिनभर ,कुछ सपनो का सम्मान करो

जब बाबा वाली बैठक में कुछ रिश्ते वाले आते हैं

जब बाबा हमें बुलाते हैं ,हम जाते हैं घाबरते हैं

जब साड़ी पहने लड़की का एक फोटो लाया जाया हैं

जब भाभी हमें मानती हैं ,फोटो दिखलाया जाता

जब सरे घर का समझाना हमको फनकारी लगता हैं

तब एक पगली के बिन जीना गद्दारी लगता हैं

और उस पगली लड़की के बिन जीना मरना भी भरी लगता हैं

दीदी कहती हैं उस पगली लड़की की कोई औकात नहीं

उसके दिल में भैया तेरे अजैसे जज़्बात नहीं

वो पगली लड़की नौ दिन मेरे लिए भूखी रहती हैं

छुप छुप सारे व्रत करती हैं, पर मुझसे कभी ना कहती

जो पगली कहती है, मैं प्यार तुम्ही से कहती हूं

लेकिन मैं हूँ मजबूर बहतु, लेकिन अम्मा बाबा से डरती हूँ

उस पगली लड़की पर अपना कुछ अधिकार नहीं बाबा

ये कथा कहानी किस्से हैं, कुछ भी तो सार नहीं बाबा

बस उस पगली लड़की के संग जीना फुलवारी लगता हैं

और उस पगली लड़की के बिन मरना भी भरी लगता हैं

                                                                

                                                                                                                                  -कुमार विश्वास                                                                         

                                                                                          

Koi Deewana kehta hain ...

Koi deewana kehta hain koi pagal samjhta hain
magar dharti ki bechani ko bas badal samjhta hain
Main tujhse dur kaisa hu,tu mujhse dur kaisi hain
Yeh tera dil samjhta hain ya mera dil samjhta hain

Ke mohobbat ek ehsaason ki paawan si kahaani hain
kabhi kabira deewana tha kabhi meera diwaani hain
Yahaan sab log kehte hain meri aakho mein aasu hain
Jo tu samjhe toh moti hain jo na samjhe toh paani hain

Mat poooch ki kya haal hai mera tere aage
Tu dekh ke kya rang hain tera mere aage

Samandar peer ka andar hain lekin ro nahi sakta
Yeh aasu pyaar ka moti hain isko kho nahi sakta
Meri chahat ko dulhan tu bana lena magar sun le
Jo mera ho nahi paaya woh tera ho nahi sakta

Bhramar koi kumudni par machal baitha toh hungama
Humare dil mein koi khwaab pal baitha toh hungama
Abhi tak doob kar sunte the sab kissa mohobbat ka
Main kisse ko hakikat mein badal baitha toh hungama

Koi deewana kehta hain koi pagal samjhta hai
magar dharti ki bechaini ko bas badal samjhta hai
Main tujhse dur kaisa hu,tu mujhse dur kaisi hai
Yeh tera dil samjhta hai ya mera dil samjhta hai

mohobbat ek ehsason ki paawan si kahaani hai
kabhi kabira deewana tha kabhi meera diwaani hai
Yahaan sab log kehte hain meri aakho mein aansu hai
Jo tu samjhe toh moti hain jo na samjhe to paani hai

Swayam se door ho tum bhi Swayam se door hain hum bhi
bahut ho mashur ho tum bhi bahut mashoor hain humbhi
bade magroor ho tum bhi bade magroor hai hum bhi
Atah mazboor ho tum bhi Atah mazboor hain hum bhi

Bahut bikhra bahut toota thapede seh nahi paaya
Hawaaon ke ishaaron par magar main beh nahi paaya
Adhoora an suna hi reh gaya youn pyaar ka kissa
Kabhi tum sun nahi paaye, kabhi main keh nahin paaya

Bhramar koi kumudni par machal baitha toh hungama
Humare dil mein koi khwaab pal baitha toh hungama
Abhi tak doob kar sunte the sab kissa mohobbat ka
Main kisse ko hakikat mein badal baitha toh hungama

Main uska hun wo is ehsaas se inkaar karta hai
Bhari mehfil mein bhi ruswaa mujhe har baar karta hai
yaki hai saari duniya ko khafa hai humse woh lekin
Mujhe maaloom hai phir bhi mujhi se pyaar karta hai

Main jab bhi tez chalta hoon nazaare choot jate hain
Koi jab roop gadhta hoon to saanche toot jate hain
Main rota hoon to aakar log kandha thap thapate hain
Main hasta hoon to mujhse log aksar rooth jate hain

Samandar peer ka andar hain lekin ro nahi sakta
Yeh aasu pyaar ka moti hain isko kho nahi sakta
Meri chahat ko dulhan tu bana lena magar sun le
Jo mera ho nahi paaya woh tera ho nahi sakta

ye dil barbad karte ek mein kyun abaad rehte ho,
koi kal keh raha tha tum allahbad rehte ho,
ye kaisi shohrate mujko atah kardi mere maula,
main sab kuch bhool jata hu magar tum yaad rehte ho,

panaho mein jo aaya ho to us par waar kya karna
jo dil hara hua ho us pe fir adhikar kya karna
mohabbat ka maza to doobne ki kasmakash mein hain
jo ho malum gehraiyee to dariya paar kya karna

hamre sher sun kar ke bhi jo khamosh itna hai.
khuda jane gurur-e-husn mein madhosh kitna hai
kisi pyale se pooncha hain surahi se sabab maika
jo khud behosh ho wo kya bataye hosh kitna hain

Basti basti ghor udashi, parwat parwat khali pan
man heera ke mol lut gaya ghish ghishri ka tan chandan
is dhatri se us ambar tak do hi cheez gazab ki hain
ek to tera bhola pan, ek mera deewana pan

Jiski dhun par duniya nache, Dil aisa ektara hai
jo humko bhi pyara hain, jo tumko bhi pyara hain
jhoom rahi hain sari duniya jabki hamre geeto par
tab kehti ho pyar hua hai kya ye pyar tumhara hai


mehli mehfil muskana to padta hai
khud hi khud ko samjhana to padta hai
uski ankhon se hokar dil tak jana
raste mein ye maikhana to padta hain
tumko pane ki kshish mein khatam hue
ishq mein itna jurmana to padta hain

sab fasile hote nahi sikke uchal ke
ye dil ke mamle hain zara dekh bal ke
mobileo ke daur ke ahshiq ko kya pata
rakte the khat mein kaleja nikal ke

murda lohe se bhi auzar banae wale,
apne ansoon ko bhi hathiyaar banane wale,
humko bekar samajhte hai siyasadna magar
hum hain is mulq ki sarkar banane wale

jo waqt ki andhi se khabar dar nahi hai,
kuch aur hi hoga wo wo kalankar nahi hai,

sada ye hain neende cheen li dono ki ankhon se,
khata ye thi ki dono ne milkar khwab dekha,

pyar jab jism ki cheekho mein dafan ho jaye
odni is taraf uljhe ki kafan ho jaye
ghar ke aisas jab bazar ki sharto mein dhale
ajnabi log jab hamrah ban ke sath chale
labon se asman tak sabki dua chubh jaye
bheed ka sor jab kano ke pass ruk jaye
sitam ki mari hui waqt ki in ankhin mein
nami ho lakh magar fir bhi muskurayeinge
andhere waqt mein bhi geet gayenge

log kehte rahein is raat ki subah hi nahi
keh de suraj ki rosni ka tajurba hi nahi
wo ladaye ko bhale aar par le jayen
loha le jaye wo lohe ki dhar le jaye
jiski chaukhat se taraju tak ho unpar girwi
us adalt mein hamein bar bar le jaye
hum agar gunguna bhi denge to wo sab ke sab
humko kagaz se hara kar bhi har jayenge
andhere waqt mein bhi geet gayen jayenge

Suno patna ki galiyon se, suno dilli ki galiyon se
ye awazein bhi aati, jinhein bhaise charnai thi wo sarkaar chalati hain

- Kumar Vishwas

Ujjad

................... "I never think of the future. It comes soon enough." ---- Albert Einstein.
............................................ Ujjad .........................................
" “ Doing anything instantly , anywhere ,without hesitating and no thinking …”"
But it doesn’t mean that these activities are bad,

I usually think after acting, but somehow manage everything and that’s the reason I have an Image(()0)

These includes just change the moods if evry one is laughing then my one sentence will stop any further laugh,
And if everyone is in sad mood then I make them laugh this is me::
That’s why my friends call me ujjad”””


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Now this is just for filling the space this what i have written on my profile so just understand the meaning of the sentence from Smileys
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i m in situation that my :-X and :-\ what to tell, but i can say that i am 8) person always :) but have these feelings to :( ;) ;D sometimes i become >:( but i shocked evreyone by being single but i m removing my >:D any waiting for someone to :-* and and then :P ??????::::::::::::::::

this means
::::::::::::::::i m in situation that my lip sealed and undecided what to tell, but i can say that i am cool person always smile but have these feelings to sad , wink , grin sometimes i become angry but i shocked evreyone by being single but i m removing my evil any waiting for someone to kiss and and then tounge(I am happy)

Hostel Life : A Report

“Inexpensive supervised lodging is hostel”.
Hostel is a place where usually students live and which is supervised by an administration. You can also call it as an inn as well.
Hostel life gives confidence to move alone in society and also gives courage to cope with the problems.
Hostel life made me what I’m today, good or bad; it gave me independence freedom, power to take decisions and a good philosophy. It increases your confidence and makes you more courageous because you have to do all your personal work by yourself.

I remember times when I cursed myself for living away from home, washing clothes in midnight with chilled water, for surviving without money for many days, things changes with time when you are in home , if you have any problem then it ‘s solved by your parents but here you have to take decision by yourself and be prepared for it’s after affects and you will face the various situation which you never imagined because you can’t expect others to involve in your personal matter and other’s don’t like to interfere in your personal life they only gives you suggestion. Because everyone has their goals and they are working on them.


Hostel life has a charm of its own. You may come out of the familiar surrounding of your dear ones and enter a new world of strangers, who are experiencing the same dilemmas
However some basic habits make the hostel life a memorable experience.

It has both positive and negative aspects. A person residing in hostel studies with full concentration and gets help from the fellow or senior students.
He does not need to do the house hold activities (cooking food), that will definitely save his time and can utilize this time to do other activities.
At many times he misses his family. (Home sickness)

The first dilemma you have to face when you enter the college hostel to share your room with a room partner. I hope you never had shared your room with anyone; this change would be quite difficult to you. Your roommate may hail from a joint family and never tried to keep a private environment in the room. Things got really worse since all have their different lifestyle of living. Some of you have routine to sleep early in the night and wake up early in the morning and others may be late night bird and never used to leave bed in the morning and somehow you have to manage to live without disturbing one
Another.

“ If u can not manage to live with a temporary room mate, how will you manage your life with your life partner because it’s our culture that most of us do not know who is going to be your spouse and you do not know her/him well . This may be different for those who have arranged marriage but for better life you have to adjust with others ”; this is a learning process
Good chance to learn and to handle this situation.

Sleeping in a hostel is difficult for any one who is light sleeper, people may snore , come in and out of the rooms at all the hours turn lights on and off in the whole night .but somehow you start understanding others and adjust with them and manage to sleep as well But there is something in your mind that there are seniors (villains for the first year students) basically aimed to disturb your peaceful life.

I remember the day when I entered the college, filled with excitement but a bit of fear was there in my heart. I was aware that being a junior, I have to face with what people call it ragging (institution call it as “Interaction”).But when I met my senior
during interaction, sometimes I felt uneasy but believe me that was my turning point of my life. I learnt a lot, how to be involved with social environment, enhanced my personality a lot .and then my hostel life started. I personally felt that interaction was compulsory as it mainly reduces your hesitation of speaking. I remember that day when I first faced an interview, the interviewer had asked me “Tell me something about yourself” then I was totally confused what to answer then I started the “intro” which seniors had told me in the similar format without any pause they were impressed so You also don’t know which experience would help you in future whether it was good or it was bad and when so learn from every moment.

As the time proceed, I started learning many things , getting involved in many activities like Sports, Dramatics and many more extra curricular activities .Believe me, hostel is a place where you can choose the right direction in which you want to go. It can be initial phase of your step if you haven’t started yet because I had seen many students who don’t know any thing about computer but some time later some of them were good programmers, some with hacking capability, some are creative designers you may be any one of them as you would get proper guidance from your colleagues and seniors

But there were many important and memorable times when you have enjoyed bunking classes watching movies late night and going to college without a sleep and sleeping in classes or attending classes in ppma (physically present and mentally absent) stage . . . This is a good experience but I suggest you not to do this , attend the classes with full energy and concentrate on your studies at least for some of the classes

Plans . . . Discussion……are the part of hostel life. You can always meet people who have different opinions on politics, sex, religion and on your country too, so you must be tolerant and understanding other people’s opinion .Don’t fight with them but try to capture the good from their points and try to correct their facts.
“ This will certainly enrich and broaden your perspectives. “

Since hostel life is a miniature representation of the society outside, there was no lack of politics in the hostel. The most influenced people stated to create their own groups and started to compete for the hostel representative oppositions. Those who are involved in the groups eventually started to split up in their relationships. Some of people who were not involved in any groups had a comparatively easy time in the hostel without involving in many spiteful issues

Money also became a villain to hinder many relationships in the hostel life. We soon learnt that there are some parasites who pride themselves to be depended on others. Complaints started to raise of unreturned money and at many times about theft . In addition to these , the hostel life also terrific nights with robbers and first hand description of the ghost experience!

The last thing I am going to explain about my hostel life. It is about the hostel food! Our hostel was also not an exceptional one in offering some of the most delicious food items. We often longed for the homely food and often starved when the plain food has been served at our hostel mess. This bring a drastic change for many of us who had the bliss to enjoy the delicious and desirable food at any time we want.

But I’m sure that you don’t miss a chance to enjoy surely in hostel I did every adventure possible and somehow manage to study before the exams………

Moreover hostel life served as a background too to groom us for the real life. Many of the hurdles that we have faced in the initial stages of the hostel life, we started to feel like heavenly at one stage. Now it’s the time to say good bye to the charming life. We walk down the corridors that had taught us some of the important lessons of social life carrying some nostalgic memories in our mind.

“So if you got hostel expect to meet new friends (different family background g / religion) and put on your best smiling face, who knows , you might make best friendship of your life”